Thursday, February 12, 2015

What is your story?

What is your story? What is the hardest thing you have had to walk through? I realized that I will never get over my husband Rob's suicidal death, but I will get through it... Only with the hand of God upon my life!

With the anniversary of my husband's suicidal death coming up on March 10th, a month away, the lyrics in this song have been moving my heart to tears... The enemy tries to throw me back into that darkness, attempting to get me to believe lies... But I know the truth: Rob left me and God loves me even more... The enemy will not prevail!!!

"Need You Now" (How Many Times) by Plumb

Well, everybody's got a story to tell
And everybody's got a wound to be healed
I want to believe there's beauty here
Cause oh, I get so tired of holding on
I can't let go, I can't move on
I want to believe there's meaning here
How many times have you heard me cry out
God please take this?
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now.
Standing on a road I didn't plan
Wondering how I got to where I am
I'm trying to hear that still small voice
I'm trying to hear above the noise
How many times have you heard me cry out
God please take this?
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you God,
I need you now.
Though I walk,
Though I walk through the shadows
And I, I am so afraid
Please stay, please stay right beside me
With every single step I take
How many times have you heard me cry out?
And how many times have you given me strength?
How many times have you heard me cry out
God please take this?
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you.
God, I need you now.
I need you now
Oh I need you
God, I need you now.
I need you now
I need you now




I'll never see you again

My heart continues to break at the sadness, not understanding... All the understanding in this world cannot change what Rob has done... 

March 10th will be the third anniversary of Rob's suicide... I covet your prayers as this time draws near its course to this deeply tragic, traumatic event, that has redefined my life...

There are those who say
It's time to let you go 
Your voice fades
In the busy-ness of my day
Grief overwhelms physically
When I cannot remember
Your arms of love around me
Tears overflowing
Fighting, knowing,
I'll never see you again
Fragile with memories
Your life left behind
Drowning in these pools of pain

My Heavenly Father
He lifts my chin above water
He keeps the fire from consuming
His arms are here in the darkness
He holds me in his compassion
I am in his faithful grip
Fragile with memories
Your life left behind
Drowning in these pools of pain 
He catches my tears overflowing
Fighting, knowing
I'll never see you again

Kimberly Wallace @ February 12, 2015