I am missing Rob on my birthday....

"In the depths of despair,
a heartache untold,
A tale of loss and anguish,
yet to unfold.
My husband, once a pillar,
now lost in the night,
His soul consumed by a tragic plight.

The weight of his suffering,
I'll never comprehend,
Alone here I stand,
As torrents of emotions,
crash against my soul,
Tears that once flowed ceaselessly, somehow gently consoled.

The emptiness he left behind,
a gaping hole,
A void that engulfs me,
devouring me whole.
Questions echo in the silence, haunting my mind,
Why did he choose to leave his life behind?

The memories we shared,
now a bittersweet reminder
of love's fragile reign.

There are no answers,
no solace to be found,
In this aftermath of darkness,
my heart is bound.
But in the depths of sorrow,
a flicker remains,
A determination to rise
above life's disdain.

For though he succumbed to his demons' embrace,
I will forge a new path,
in his memory, with grace.
To honor his spirit,
to keep his light aglow,
And find a way to heal,
to let my  heart grow.

In the midst of despair,
I discover resilience,
A strength I never knew,
in the face of defiance.
I'll carry his love within me,
as I journey ahead,
Embracing life's challenges,
however they spread.

Though the pain may linger,
a sometimes companion,
I'll learn to coexist,
to discover expansion.
For in the tapestry of life,
his thread may be frayed,
But his spirit endures,
my heart unafraid
I'll take each step forward,
with courage and might,
In this dance with grief,
seeking rays of light.
For even in the darkest of night,
hope still gleams,
And in the depths of my soul,
love redeems."

© Kimberly Anne Wallace 06/15/23